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Well thanks followers for reading my blog.

Mucho appreciated, friends.

a

NEW GOAL.

Blog once a week. At least.

Challenge accepted.

Bring it on 2014.

SUP?

I always say this but it's literally been a while.

I need a vacation.  Somewhere warm would be nice.

I'm over worked and stressed. See point above.

Christmas is here! Yay presents!

Peace out, A-town.

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME.

Seriously.

I always say I'll make more of an effort to blog but then life gets in the way... excuses, excuses.

No promises this time, but I'll TRY to blog more. Trying counts for something, right?

So what's been going on with me you ask? Instead of writing out paragraphs, I shall use a bulletted list:

• Working at UW 
• Moving at the end of the month to a HUGE room. FINALLY BRO.
• I discovered 8tracks. ZOMG BEST. SITE. EVER. Follow me.
• I've realized that being in Waterloo for 5+ years means a lot of my friends are moving back home :( time to make new friends I guess...
• Relationships are overrated
• In addition to my above point, it's time for ME to be selfish for once (but not too selfish)
• I still love Britney Spears. Y'all can't say shit about her.
• Guys that try to hook up with you and have a gf. LIKE WTF. Not every girl is trying to be a home wrecker. 
• My new phrase to define everything that happens at work "FUCK THIS SHIT"

I could write so much more but then this post will be uber long. 

Peace out interwebs.

AT

Strada

Why did I choose to title this post as Strada? Probably because this eye shadow on my desk is called Strada. Yeah, I'm not feeling too creative today.

I hate when people fight. I hate when I get into arguments with people and it just ends awkwardly. Sadly, this is happening to me alot lately. I try to fix things and stay calm and be a person who's 'go with the flow' but I can't do that. It took me 21 years to realize that I can't and won't change for anyone. I wish relationships were easier. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who cares about what's going on. Lately I've felt like I've been giving alot (not just in my relationship but everywhere) and not getting much back. That feeling is the worst because its so discouraging and it makes you second guess yourself. Should I keep doing what I'm doing and keep waiting OR should I move on and let my inner bitch shine? Obviously, if I were to bring out my inner bitch I'd have no friends lol. Forealz though, sometimes I have those days where I think my life is spinning out of control. Its like being lost without a map. Its a confusing time for alot of us because we're graduating, wondering how we're gonna pay OSAP back and hoping we find jobs but apart from those stressors, I feel like I don't have my support system anymore. I feel disconnected and as if a part is missing from me. Its a scary feeling but I think I need to step back and re-evaluate what I have and what's important to me.

JOKE OF THE WEEK.

I understand some people may be offended, but this is THE funniest thing I have seen all month. My apologies to anyone who is offended by the above image.

mumblings of a muse

IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I'VE WRITTEN HERE!
But this will change because my goal starting now is to write here at least once a week. I forgot how fun it is to write on a blog that virtually no one reads. Maybe I should become more public with it, but I don't think I'm comfortable (just yet) with letting everyone into my world.
So much has changed in my life. Its been good and bad, sometimes I feel like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions. I have to admit I'm blessed. Good things are finally happening to me and I will NOT take any of this for granted. My self-esteem has shot up 9000% because its become clear to me that people finally believe in me. People think I will go far in life and are giving me these chances. This is really the best feeling in the world because I know its something no one can take away from me. Even though this term I should be graduating, I'm happy I'm staying back to really get involved and give back to my school. I just wish I took these opportunities earlier, but 2 years ago I know I would not have been ready for everything coming my way. I've met so many great people this past year but its sad to think that these people I spent a whole year with are now moving on to bigger and better things. Its sad letting these people into your life for such a short while. Either way I feel blessed getting to know everyone that has been in my life these past few months.
The next 8 months are all about change. I will be out of my so used to comfort zone and will meet new people, face new challenges and get to know myself a lot better. I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared. The truth is that its not that I want to disappoint myself, I don't want to disappoint the people around me who believed in me and gave me a chance to shine. I will not let these people down. Yes this puts pressure on me but I know I can do it. Its amazing to see how much I have changed in such little time. 3 years ago, I would not think I'd be capable of being a don- RESPONSIBLE for the lives of 40 first years. But I feel as I have matured so much in such a short time.
This post is getting long, but I'm glad I got to address my concerns and fears about the upcoming months. I know I'll be okay because I know I have a great team behind me who will be there with me every step of the way.

Peace Out.
YOLO. (joke of the WEEK)

CANADA POST

FUCK YOU CANADA POST!
I AM NEVER GETTING MAIL FROM YOU AGAIN
YOU SUCK YOU CUNTFUCK WHORESLUT


UPS ALL THE WAY! FUCK YOU CANADA POST GO BACK ON STRIKE YOU GREEDY MOFOZ

Its been too long.

It really has been too long. No I have not been neglecting my blog, per se but I've been busy. Actually this is a very busy summer for me, you know 5 classes plus a job [which is despise] it seems like I never have time for anything. I learned alot of things this year so far, but the biggest thing was definitely friendships. My perspective on friends has changed and no this is not some 'brown girl drama' stuff- this stuff is real but we keep it classy. Kinda. I learned who I can trust, who I can't trust, who's a puppet playing along but most of all I know the people who will be with me till the end. And they know who they are too. Aside from that your girl just turned 21 woo legal in every state! Its funny I don't feel 21 yet. I guess I need some little kid to ask me how old I am and when I tell him his response is 'wow you're old'. Yup that will solidify that I'm 21. Exciting.
I miss writing in my blog. I like how relatively no one reads this so its like my online diary that only I pay attention too. I really wish I could enjoy my summer more, I would love to go to the beach or try something cool like canoeing.  I'm supposed to be writing an entertaining speech about how to make friends [its funny I promise] but here I am blogging. I guess I can't focus on writing my speech because I have too much on my mind right now. Random fact as I type this: Kid Cudi's song 'marijuana' is exactly 4:20 long. HA HA! Alright enough with the puns.
I don't know whats bugging me though. If I knew I'd probably be able to focus but SIGH. I guess I'm sick of being in this town and need a change of scenery. Last week I got to go to Toronto for the day and while I was there I realized I really really missed Toronto. I miss how it feels like home. Waterloo does not feel like home to me although I've been here for almost 3 years. I guess I need that 'hometown' feeling back soon because I have Toronto withdrawal. But on a lighter note, alot of my favourite shows are back on like True Blood and Big Brother so I guess I have more to look forward too. :)
I should go to bed soon but I'll probably lay in bed for an hour before I actually fall asleep. SIGH.

BD

cold

Someone please tell me why it's SO cold outside.I was just watching a video that was shot in California and here I am thinking to myself? WHEN DO I GET TO WEAR FLIP FLOPS? I miss flip flops. If you know me then you know I HATE SHOES. I legit own 3 pairs of shoes but with flip flops I have to have at least 20 pairs every summer haha. I wish I could cuddle with a special someone right now, drinking a french vanilla and watch Blue Valentine. Sighhhhhhhhhh school keeps me so busy it really is the ultimate cockblock.

TAJ MAHAL

This song is stuck in my head. For good reason though. Its such a beautiful song, written by a beautiful man *emo sigh*. Anyways I know it looks like I've been neglecting my blog to the, what is it MAYBE three readers I have haha but I've been busy busy busy. It's not getting any easier though but school will be over soon yay. My eyes were opened today to the diversity and culture on campus. I guess I never really stopped to think about how one's university experience can really shape and transform your life. Sometimes I think I take my education for granted but without it I would be a nobody. As controversial as that statement seems, I've encountered people in my life who are nothing without an education. My advice for the day? Stay in school kids.

As I was saying about diversity there are people from all walks of life here. As cliche as that may sound its true. I'll cherish this experience because I've met so many people that have changed my life and experienced so many things that I would not have otherwise. On a lighter note, why is this weather so whack? Why is it nice in the morning when I leave for class but COLD like Antarctica an hour later? All I would like to say is that SUMMER PLEASE COME FASTER.

goodnight boobs.
sleep close together.

zomg! so cute!

he's my new cuddlebud. nuff said.

everything changes

Why can't things stay the same in my life? Why is it that when life starts to look bright, things change for the worse? Is this bad luck or am I destined to always have an imperfect life? A blemish will forever stain my path and follow me everywhere. Although I try to look at this situation in the negative, it is what it is.
I always tell my friends to never dwell on their problems but rather, fix things because you never know what could happen. I wish the girl who told me to 'never go to bed with bad thoughts' would take her own advice. ZING!. Haha that's like the fob version of PING! on bbm. Yeah, I would make that comparison.
Overall this weekend wasn't too shabby (do people still say that? well they do now). Sushi with the girls and then, wait for it, SUSHI again with the boy. Woooooo hello mercury poisoning (just kidding!) but forealz I ate so much fish I'm pretty sure there's gonna be a tuna spawn in me in the coming weeks. Watch out for it yo.
I'm gonna end this off with a quote: the weak can never forgive, forgiveness is an attribute for the strong.

slip n slide

This song has been stuck in my head all day! Ahh snoop dogg why do you have to make such catchy songs for perverts like me and roommates (I kid, I'm the only perv). So this is my first post of the new year.. a tad bit late I'd say but hey the point is that it's here. Its winter, its SUPER penguin lovin cold outside and school started blah plus my skin is super dry all the time no matter how much lotion I put on FML. These past 2 weeks have gone by kinda slow, well at least I think so but I bet I'm the only one who thinks that. I'm kinda wishing reading week was here already but then again I don't want the term to end, weird I know.

You know that saying three's a crowd? Well its VERY true. A certain someone does not understand what her place is anymore. Another certain someone isn't [really] doing anything about it. Where does this leave me? This leaves me to think that this annoying mosquito needs to go back to the hood and hibernate for the rest of her life. Sometimes I wonder why I jump into things to fast, why do I set myself up to get hurt? This prob doesn't make sense but in a few years when I read this post to myself I won't know what I'm talking about either. I wish people would keep their promises but I guess that's another post for another day.

In other news, I have [re] found my love for water. Yes that clear, tasteless beverage that most of us don't get enough of. This is my new love. Plus my snazzy bottle makes water so legit to drink (actually not really). I hope this health kick starts kicking in soon haha. No but forealz, I've been trying and I have to admit its not THAT hard but sometimes its so hard to say no to bread :(

fairy tales do come true

Well not always but sometimes life just works its magic. Its the end of the year which means things are coming to an end but my favourite month is coming up. January reminds me of everything I love about life: starting over and learning something new. There's something refreshing about January because it reminds you that people all around you want to make changes to their lives, although alot of people might not stick to their new found changes. I'm not one to really make new year's resolutions because if I want to make a change I don't need the new year to determine my start date; I'll do it whenever. The end of the year gets me excited about what's to come and what I have to look forward to. 2011 seems like it's going to be a good year, especially because I have someone special to share it with. Other than that, I think 2011 will be all about changes for me. I'm going to be 21 this year and even though this may not be a huge deal for some people, to me it means the world. I'm excited about all the new adventures and obstacles life will throw at me this year. 2010 was great; I met alot of new people, I learned who I can really trust and who my real friends are, I learned alot about myself, I learned to take risks because they can pay off and learned that someone up there is listening to everything you wish for. Best of all, I met an amazing person and can't wait to spend 2011 with him. My fairy tale is almost complete. Happy New Year to you all! I hope 2011 is spectacular for everyone  <3

it all went wrong

Have you ever had those moments when everything seems to go wrong? Everything seems perfect, everyone around you seems great and then, out of nowhere something triggers you and everything changes. That's happened to me- a lot this week. I don't know why, I don't know what started it all but all I do know is that I'm pretty sure everyone around me thought I was kinda nutty. Maybe its because of exam time. Maybe its because winter has arrived. Maybe its because I don't know how to deal with things. Or maybe I'm having a profound epiphany. Actually probably not but still it was worth a guess. Whatever it is I hope its gone now. When things like this happen to me, I take a step back and look at the bigger picture. I look at what I have to be grateful for rather than what's upsetting me. Call me optimistic (which I don't think is such a bag thing btw), but sometimes its just refreshing to see things from a different perspective. It keeps you in check and reminds you that EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. That should be my new mantra: everything is going to be alright. No matter what.

this is about everything

Why is it soo gloomy outside? I woke up and thought it was night time. No lie. Why is the weather tricking me by making it look like its cold outside? I go outside and its 12 degrees wtf. The library is packed as usual as I watch all these people be productive, here I am watching Gossip Girl. Go me! You know that good feeling you get after you tell someone something really important that you have been holding in for a while? Well I experienced that a couple of days ago and I have to say I feel SOO much better. I compare it to cleaning my room. Horrible example I know but it works for me because  I'm messy :) I know I haven't written about anything in particular but that's because I haven't had one of those 'AHA' moments, you know, the ones that Oprah always talks about. But when I do I'll definitely blog about it. Promise. Wow, it looks like I make alot of promises BUT I keep them :) tooodles kids

tiddlywinks

This post has nothing to do with tiddlywinks I just thought it was a hilarious word that was worthy of being a blog post title :) But what this post is really about is procrastination. We all do it. Some of love it and some of us hate it and some of us can't help but procrastinate. Sadly, I'm in that last group. I hate procrastinating but I always seem to do it. I hate starting things early because I always tell myself I have alot of time. It gets left to the last minute and then I'm scrambling to get shit done. eff em el. So as I sit here updating my blog just know that I'm currently procrastinating 3 assignments, coupled with sitting here all dressed up and waiting. Grrrrr I hate waiting! By the way this is off topic and totally unrelated but Usher's album raymond vs. raymond is literally all about him talking about how wonderful he is at sex. Seriously. He can't be that good. Homeboy needs to relax and go back to singing about getting bitches at clubs and telling us we don't have to call. Time for me to get back to procrastinating w000000000t.

exams

So peeps its that wonderful time of the year again, and no I'm not talking about Christmas. But I wish I was talking about Christmas, I'd do almost anything for a delicious shortbread cookie right about now lol. Nope guys, its EXAM TIME! woooo! I personally am a horrible exam taker (is that even a phrase?) so yes, I despise exam time. Coupled with it being negative zero ;) and constantly dark every time I look out the window, all I wanna do is curl up in my semi-warm bed, watch Mad Men with a peppermint mocha. And to make things worse, I finish exams on the last day- never fails, thanks uw.  So while I'm studying till my head explodes, you guys can enjoy the horrid weather, the snow and some timmies. I'm envious of you all. All I really have to look forward too is 9 days of xmas break. Yup you read that right, NINE days. Thanks again uw. But hey, staying here till the last day does comes with its perks :)

bitches love smiley faces

So I've been contemplating this blog for a looooonnnnngg time and someone has FINALLY pushed me to make my own :) I guess it makes sense cuz I'm such a blog groupie haha. So don't expect too much from this blog...just yet lol and I'm pretty sure I only have one reader right now but its all good. Hopefully this blog will keep me entertained cuz it seems all the boys (ahem, ahem) are into call of duty aka 'that girlfriend stealing game'. I'll try to keep thing fresh while I write 4 papers and study for exams AND keep up with my shows. I really wish I were more interesting and knew what to talk about in my very first blog post lol. OH WELL it'll get better, I promise. Tooodles bitches. =)